Its all because my my stupid mood swing. I poured all my feelings on you. I thoght it was ok.. only when someone told me you were urt. Tears starts to well up in my eyes. Every msg i sent to you, tears are at the brim. I told myself why? Just because I'm angry, Just because I dislike. I pour my anger on you. Making you the middle person. I truly regretted what I've done. Making an outsider affecting us. I'm really sorry bout it. I'm just too sensitive over it. I'm not good at my words.. but just... I'm Really sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you, and made you the middleman. =(

It's really great meeting up, knowing there's someone who's willing to listen, having a shoulder to lean on.

Thanks for your msg, It really do made a difference in me. Thanks Love.


 

Listening this over and over again doesn't get me bored. It just.... Brought back memories...

I love him. Adrian Cheng. Just thinking back how silly am I before, throwing tantrums, giving attitude. I feel I'm mean towards him. But he still loves me silly. Prolly, Richelle is changing? HA! Its just a stage of growing and learning I guess. Learnign to understand each other. Leraning to give and take. =) I LOVE YOU MANY MANY!

It's Aunt Theresa's Birthday @ Hard Rock Cafe!  Atmosphere was just right. The songs, the food, the people there..
She's just like my second Mummy.... =) I LOVE HER!

( HARD ROCK CAFE SINGAPORE )( HARD ROCK CAFE SINGAPORE )

Featured with strap and buckle details on the vamp and ankle, this shoe is made of a boastful black patent upper accented with tan leather adorned with golden studs and grommets with gold buckles for an adjustable vamp and ankle strap. A funky cork wedge heel measures 1 inch at the platform and 4 1/4 inches at the heel.

Ain't this pair of 4 1/4 inch heels gorgeous! All thanks to Aunty Rexy! She got this for me! Im loving it!


AND MUMMY just came in and passed me a pair of m(phosis platform wedge! =)

When My life is just like the colour of this picture.

Only then I realise How lost I'm. I feel alone more often than ever. I feel not who I'm as much as before. I don;t know whats happening. But neither do I know how can I find out the true problem. Life ain't fair. I always thought that LIfe was just like a bed of roses. Only to realise, Under those roses were painful thorns, roses are getting lesser, and the thorns starts to be visible.

I thought everything was fine, everything was just the same as ever. But. Everytime I think bout it, I just get pricked by those sharp thorns. Where's my bed of roses?

I have people telling me. LIfe's short. Live to the fullest. How am I suppose to, when I'm always being pulled to the deepest. I'm drowned with all the unwanted things in life, those nasty words I've got. And mayb, it all comes right back to me, I'm the main problem.

If live could be just like Miss Sunshine, Just enjoying life, no worries in life. How wonderful would that be?

Suddenly I realise there's no happiness in me. I want to smile as always, I wanan joke like I always do. But, that seems to far for me to reach for.

Life's getting mudane, I can't help. Neither do you know how to.

Even if we tried. We'll just start quarelling, we'll just end up with tears on our faces, screaming thru the phone, and waking up the next day with swollen eyes.

Taking people comments is how to improve oneself and seeing oneself, be it good or bad.

Yes, I agree I have problems accepting. Yes. having problem accepting when I'm being said in a nasty tone.

I just wished for freedom, I just wanna e myself. I just wanna have fun.
 
I Know I don't need you to show faces / raise voice at me, not because I don't deserve to. But prolly, I'm not married to you.

Your starting not to accept what I say. And mayb because I have made a mistake ONCE, and you made it as if i'm always wrong.
Then When I got a lil pissed, You'll just say your joking.

When I'm pissed, I need time to change my mood back. And is how amazing how you can change yours in mins. prolly seconds.

I'm afraid I can't take it anymore. I'm sorry.

I have no where to vent my problems but here....




I would be much happier if my life colour could change to this..

THE LAUGHTER WE HAD THRU OUT

THE TEAM SPIRIT WE HAVE IN US

ALL THANKS TO THE LOVELY COMMITEES, MAKING THIS CAMP A WONDERFUL, MEMORABLE ONE

WE CHEER, WE AIM AS ONE!      GO REXAZ!!!

LETS ALL CHEER WITH PASSION

Celebrated his 21st in Sembawang park! =)

Wish you all the best in Army... I know Joanna misses you much!

Goodness Gracious. Never in my life I thought I would meet someone who is like that. Just imagine.  She was suppose to help out in a stunt, and unfortunately a flyer(A)  fell front, she(B) being the front person,  instead of helping her up or preventing her from fall (teddy bear hug), she see her fall flat on the ground and raised her voice at her behind her back. Yes, I agree the flyer should know her mistake. BUT by not helping her up, and say behind her back, while she is still on the ground facing the mats.

Is that how a person should portray oneself? How would (A) feel?

I doubt B would even bother. B should know much more about it as she have been in this line for almost a year plus.

Ok..I went to hold her up, and she said it was alright... (A) is a quiet girl, prolly she'll just keep it to herself.  When I told B " hey, needa catch if flyer fall" SHE TOTALLY LOOKED AWAY AND IGNORE WHAT I SAY. can I say that as PURE DISRESPECT? yes. I dun need people respecting me like whatsoever, but at least its the basic courtesy to look at the person when he/she is conveying something, rather than turning away, and IGNORE. MOREOVER SHE DID SOMETHING SO WRONG! 

I see (B) as the same level as me, even tho I'm a year senior than her. I respect her, I gave her face by not saying her infront of the juniors. At least I still put myself in her shoes, I hold back my words. Even tho my blood is boiling at 1million degrees.

Now, Put that aside. Coach told me that, we(seniors) should be like a catalyst, make them work more, talk less, making things fast. Thats where practoce makes perfect. Then! I heard (B) saying " eh! faster leh you all faster" ok.. at that moment i thought she was speeding things up, I was glad.. then to my horror.. she say this to (A). " eh! faster leh you all faster, you fly already than I can fly also. If not coach scold me, so you faster fly". Ain't that putting pressure on (B)? Ain't the junior are the ones should be more exposed to such stuff? Ain't seniors are suppose to help them out, correct their mistakes? make their basic as strong as possible? What is (B) thinking, I got totally no freaking idea.

That happened on one random day..


and guessed what! i heard the exact same thing in camp! " Eh, faster fly, I wanna try also leh"  Oh, PLease. (B) know there's limited time, and she totally know that juniors need time to perfect the stunts and stuff, why is she always snatching from them? WHY WHY WHY! Ain't she suppose to know this camp is more like allowing juniors to experience more, expose more? SHE OUGHT TO! or is she a junior up there (brain).

Ok, I'm sorry if my teammates didn't like the routine or so. I'm really sorry, but I need things to move on, else we would be stuck, we would not have ample time to train to hit 100% perfect.

YET ANOTHER HORROR! (B) mumbled herself to the team with a sarcastic laugh " haha! I must back spot all the way." and there she is walking pass me when she say this.

Like hey! if you have issue with it, come up to me then! why must you like say behind me or so. I have been continuously asking if you guys are ok, (B) said totally ok.

I wanna thank my juniors for being so good. You guys were great. You guys listened to me. Thank you so much. I really appreciated alot. And thanks for giving me this chance to guide you guys. But at the same, I'm sorry if I made you guys unhappy in a way or another. I seek your forgiveness.
I know i'm mean if I say these. but.. I feel unfair.. cus my JUNIORS ARE STUCK BECAUSE OF (B). believe it anot? believe it!

I've been holding this in me for quite some time. I've yet to tell coach bout it. I thought she would learn. and I realise. She never did.

I would just want (B) to know. Being in this line. Is not about you choosing your own position. You need to learn everything, you need to know. As a senior, you ought to know even more. And i'm sorry to say, If you still continue to choose postions and only does things your way, IGNORE AND DISRESPECT people. I can tell you now, This won;t bring you far. I can tell you that honestly. I learn from my ex coach. Listening from others, accepting other people comments is changing yourself to a better person, to make yourself perfect.

Continue DISRESPECTING and IGNORING people, I guarantee you! Nothing will go your way! and your will never ever SUCCEED! you will NEVER!

If you don't believe.. Continue your way than. Don;t come back regretting. When the juniors are so much better than you, and you start telling yourself why must you be so choosy, so disrespectful, and ignoring ppl. YOU WILL REGRET!

I didn't say that I'm totally perfect. BUT at least i know I respect people. I listen, I accept comments. And I'm glad that all my friends are So respectful, supportive and great listener, and also ppl who willing to accept comments.

Richelle just feel so sorry for (B). Cus if she doesn't change, She will be stuck. LITERALLY STUCK!

New commitee AY 09/10! JIAYOU! GO REXAZ!

Thank you Crestlyn for this lovely surprise, Thank you Rexaz for all the lovely notes

Richelle.. With a Tiara and a Seashell =) XOXO

Rexaz came so far, had so much fun, tears, laughter, anger.. we've all made it.. a one big happy family..
Knowing you guys are the best gift I've ever received.
I gave up, but yet you guys chose to forgive me, and still welcome me back with open arms, with warm tight hugs.
I appreciate all these alot, when i'm in trouble. Rexaz people are the ones who I thought of first.
Those listening ears I've got, Those words to calm me down, Those who wipe my tears,
Those pat on the back and telling me everythings ok. Those encoraging words from you guys made me moved on.
I really hope.. or rather it will be, Rexaz would be like this down the road, happy, bonded, where memories are.
Yes we do quarrells, we do bear grudges, we are dissapointed. But when we look back.. we laugh at what we did * Yes? SARAH?"
Because of this quarrell and disagreement, brought me and sarah a step closer. Knowing each other better, and loving each other more. Yes, thinking back, I would regret.. Why quarrell? You get to stunt with your friend? Why? I couldn't answer myself..
But I'm glad, Now.. All have been the past, memories.. for us to laugh at. Now.. We're BFF.. =)
Maybe until when you lost someone, then you realise how important is she to you, how much you miss her, how much you wished she would talk to you, how much you wish she was on the mats training with you, and wishing you could stunt with her once more.. and how afraid we would drift apart, we would just be hi bye friends, we would just smile, no more staying overs and chilling out.
I don't wanna lose Rexaz, Neither do i wanna drift from my friends in there.. I do miss you guys.. even tho I ain't on mats with you guys.
I do cheer for you guys still. And I'M PROUD TO BE A REXAZ CHEERLEADER.. T-REX! LETS ROAR!!!

I'M PROUD TO PRESENT RP REXAZ!
( SLA Fiesta )

Bro 21st birthday was indeed a blast. WIth all dressed up.. NERD! YES NERD! I chose to be a typical school girl. Photos ill do the work.

( LETS PLAY NERD! )

ok.. like finally I'm back to blog. At times I just feel I don't have to cus prolly no one's reading or so. Or mayb I should start. Boyf just asked me " Baby, what happened to your blog?" I replied" Dead" hahah!

alright.. I'll just post some pictures up here bout recent activities etc.  Who know's when i might stop blogging for some time...


( Songkran Festival )

when you realise.. everything's too late.. you can;t turn back time.. but just pray... and just regret the rest of your life.

I've got so much to blog. As always.
I'm lazy.
ok. shan't procrastinate any further.
will blog once i've got all the photos. =)